86. Notes from the cutting room floor

My ab exercises are coughing 

Riley Dyson

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Riley Dyson

Published 

Oct 24, 2024

Notes from the cutting room floor

        And to help anyone, you had to walk beside them, and often they’d lead me. Then who was helping who? A bunch of dwellers convincing the other to enjoy the next step, to try and convince themselves.

        Sex with a condom doesn’t count

        We didn’t find peace in the chaos but let the chaos be peace

        My throat pains for the high of the hash

        That little flame stopped worrying about the melting wax, that little flame fell to its death and warmed the walls around him with light.

        There is freedom in loving someone, knowing you’re about to leave, but what is love, but feeling free wherever you are.

        The devils just a yes man

        Bluetooth connected. Righto smartass

        There’s a moon that sings so beautifully,

The waves dance to her whistle

        Love is a dagger it’s shiny blade soothes my soul

        My homophobia saved me from vaping

        Just cause they’re playing the loudest music, doesn’t mean you should walk in

        Don’t worry about it

        A whore offered me everything. A massage then her pussy. Wouldn’t that be ironic. Meet your soul mate then a prostitute. Listen to the soul then tell it to shut the fuck up.

        True heroes died along with their stories

        Do drugs late so you can do them for longer

        Realise you aren’t you first

writing is like buying a tattslotto ticket every week then when you’re out people ask what you do, and you tell them that’s you’re a professional gambler, and they say, oh really, what have you won?

and you say nothing, but I’m very close.

        Do you think in countries where they eat dogs they just have breeds on the menu?

Does this golden retriever come with fries?

        Medicating a spook is like burning a starry night

        Van, if only you were born in India, you would’ve been worshipped when you were alive

        These beggars grow up and become a little clever and you grow up and become a little dumber

        Funny stuff always happened to me, it was like it knew I’d laugh, and when I didn’t, it would do it to remind me to

        Tonight I’ll walk home along the lake, high and drunk and I’ll realise I forgot my hat, then I will realise I wasn’t wearing one but it’s a metaphor for my laptop.

        I asked a yogi to read my palm and he told me he would speak to his manager

        God subcontracted my divine intervention to the devil

Riddle me that brother

        I fought wars for her,

i was going to be killed for her,

what a beautiful thing to die for.

        She struggled with boundaries and self awareness and cause of the second one she didn’t know either.

        If you sing bad you sing bad in every language

        You know what man, you’re right

        The devil don’t gotta do much here, we’re all looking for him

        Saying, “what did you say cunt?” To anyone who doesn’t speak English around you

        Music pushes tears that are too scared to jump,

        Like a toddler deprived of attention he cries

        If a girl starts to dance with you and does that thing where you’re meant to spin around under her arm, you’re allowed to knock her out

        Replacing a stoners popcorn with chips and he doesn’t notice

        I’m more scared of myself, than I’ll ever be of you

        This blokes tough

        Tell me where all the trendy people are so I can avoid it

        The moon fell quickly, just in time to free me of her pull

        We all fell in love with a stranger

        Time goes fast when you aren’t watching it. Cheeky bastard

        Medusas hair was way too judgemental

        I am not fat I am well rounded

        Like a bowling ball

        I don’t think I’m better than you, and that’s why I am.

        Finally found a girl that wants you to be you, Jesus.

        Purist is another word for stuck in the past

        And people make me feel like the nerds I used to bully, who could see straight through me with the ability not to mention it

        Worship your fellow ant

        Should I kill this mosquito feasting on my blood, or show it mercy?

        Bleeding through my soul it hurts, but I know I’m not all of this, it’s fine, I know I’m fine.

        The second half of awakening is not to be controlled by rebellion

        When indifference cause words then your muse is always going to be a disruption to serenity

        Love makes sense, sense doesn’t make love

        When you read this tomorrow, thank me, because we didn’t do anything.

        Heaven is just a good sleep away

        My illusion of control was losing its power

        I’m using you to work some stuff out, don’t take it personal

        Why is it those who practise yoga are the most judgemental gay cunts you’ve ever met?

        The girls I love hate me I tell myself

        Bukowski will save me

        I used to hate the government until I loved a girl, and then I hated myself

        No one will ever get me. Says a man, who has based his entire life on people getting him

        To walk on the beautiful flower of hope is almost enough to stop visiting. Almost.

        My ab exercises are coughing

        You feel death in the air the way you feel the sun in the sand at night.

        It’s a farce I have to pay $70 for 3kg of luggage when an obese man behind me steals space, weight, oxygen, all free of charge.

        the alcohol eventually kills me and i always go down writing.

what is escape but finding a new room?

what is pain but a battle to watch?

what is time, but a dream.

bred to carry this a little further.

my soul is the space between the atoms i occupy.

its just a brief walk in the garden of senses.

        The scar stays and the pain comes and goes and a little weaker each visit

        You have to stay on your toes; there’s so many new things that a bad one wouldn’t stand out

        The ego tries to impress the soul by pretending it’s not an ego

        Soon you will forget how it all felt, just try and enjoy it

        You go from Island to island chasing refuge from the dooming tide until you realise it’s easier to just float

        Enlightenment is giving up on trying to remember

        Is it madness to go to the best places to work, or to go to the other place; work.

        There’s also an immortal essence. That’s a nice thing to believe.

        My algorithm betrays me

        To have good weed again was like in wizard of oz when it turned to colour

        Are you stoned? As a kite

        A freedom being questioned is a part of the freedom

        To question your freedom is freedom

        Uber driver giving you a horsey bite

        Life’s a game governed by man

        My love for sport didn’t die it just expanded to everything

        Trying to fix is trying to control; it’s not broken baby

        The ice cream was an analogy… for snorting crack out of the cunt of a beaten up Whore

        His forehead looked like a bicep

        You don’t learn things you just find a way to express it better

        Fat chicks are told to be prudish,  completely neglecting their purpose

        of keeping the hot ones honest

        When you’re willing to die for someone, you will.

        Suffer is silence buddy, it’s not worth the hassle

        If god had made others like her, I’d never heard about them

        How much can we learn about ourselves from the weakness of another?

        Bridge the gap between your truth and your hope and you will find the truth is all you hoped for

        The most romantic thing you can do is leave, with nothing but a thanks and goodbye. Imagination and pain will create stories far more beautiful than reality.

        All a man does because he cannot cry, all the places he paints his battle to express grief and fear.

        Nature, again, reminds me to take a deep breath and be patient

        I was overwhelmed by the sensation my atoms vibrating when a fellow he asked “you feel those mushrooms yet?”

“Nah, not really, you?”

“Nah”

Then immediately, he asked me again.

        I love the most dysfunctional cunts in the world

        I can deal with a cunt, but I can’t handle a liar

        Ralph, I search for your love everywhere.

        I’m clinically insane, luckily I’m not in a clinic

        Speaking with a girl who is a therapist, as a friend, about any issue of your own is like asking an electrician to put in a downlight when he came over to watch the footy

It doesn’t change, you just get better at riding the waves.

I don’t like getting

my information like that…

How?

on purpose

white flower,

its petal has the sweetness

of a wedding

dress,

there is yellow

in the middle,

attracting bees

and me.

the flower

reminds me

of a girl,

she isn’t gone,

she just isn’t here.

there is nothing

left but love,

but don’t

write about that,

they want

blood.

Jesus’

blood was wine,

no wonder

they made

him bleed.

honesty creates

good art,

eventually…

her head wasn’t bad,

it had everything it needed

it just wasn’t very

pretty.

the thoughts

of suicide

were a threat

to my pain,

I didn’t want to

be dead,

I just didn’t want

to be alive,

not like this.

they kept

saying

you will

be okay

you are

a good looking

guy and I

tried to tell

them that I

feel very

ugly on the inside

what if

a flower

didn’t

want what

is best

for you,

would it

still be

beautiful?

poetry

reminds you

not to

waste ink,

but still

paint with

the pen,

then,

remind poetry

that it

does not know,

no one does.

mosquitos

on jesus

would get

drunk,

and vampires,

drunk vampire,

now that

is a scary

thought.

keep drinkin water

keep loving life

keep on smiling

and stay out of strife!

Are you god?

only on weekends…

The attention asked,

when did you

know you made it?

every morning I meditated,

replied the famous writer

everyone I have

ever met

and ever will

meet,

live within

the book,

either in a chapter,

the whole thing,

or a space between

two letters.

They wrote

the book,

I take no

credit,

please.

don’t try and make

me,

I am happy here.

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